Dead Memories

Sitting in the dark, I cant forget.
Even now, I realize the time Ill never get.
Another story of the Bitter Pills of Fate.
I cant go back again.
I cant go back again

But you asked me to love you and I did.
Traded my emotions for a contract to commit.
And when I got away, I only got so far.
The Other Me Is Dead.
I hear his voice inside my head

We were never alive, and we wont be born again.
But Ill never survive with Dead Memories in my heart.

You told me to love you and I did.
Tied my soul into a knot and got me to submit.
So when I got away, I only kept my scars.
The Other Me Is Gone.
Now I dont know where I belong

We were never alive, and we wont be born again.
But Ill never survive with Dead Memories in my heart.

Dead Visions in your Name.
Dead Fingers in my Veins.
Dead Memories in my Heart

Snuff

Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again

So if you love me, let me go
And run away before I know
My heart is just too dark to care
I can't destroy what isn't there.
Deliver me into my fate
If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you
My smile was taken long ago
If I can change I hope I never know

I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn't face a life without your light
But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight

So save your breath, I will not hear
I think I made it very clear
You couldn't hate enough to love
Is that supposed to be enough?
I only wish you weren't my friend
Then I could hurt you in the end
I never claimed to be a saint
My own was banished long ago
It took the death of hope to let you go

So break yourself against my stones
And spit your pity in my soul
You never needed any help
You sold me out to save yourself
And I won't listen to your shame
You ran away, you're all the same
Angels lie to keep control
My love was punished long ago
If you still care, don't ever let me know
If you still care, don't ever let me know

I'm Mr.Brightside

I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Got to, got to be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss

Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head

But she's touching his chest now
He takes off her dress now
Let me go
I just can't look, it's killing me
And taking control

Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
Because I'm Mr. Brightside

I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Got to, got to be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss

Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head

But she's touching his chest now
He takes off her dress now
Let me go
Because I just can't look, it's killing me
And taking control

Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Turning through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
Because I'm Mr. Brightside

I never
I never
I never

*Guess some might know why Mr.Brightside's lyrics is up here... In regards of the dream i had on *19 March 2010*

Back to 10am shift... Finally 6am shift is OVER!!!

Woohoo!!! No more waking up at 5am from now onwards!!! Ehmmm Ehmmm, for the time being...

10am Shift is heeeeeeeeerrrrrrrreeeeeeee!!!

Shit!!! It's 9am already... Crap! Better get ready...

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What a Crazy Fucked Up Dream I Had

Just woke up feeling all fucked up and confused. Seriously! I was like kinda stuck in a nightmare where i can't exit just a moment ago.

How fucked up the dream was? It was REALLY FUCKED UP!

I won't go into the details cause its kinda personal, but since i'm such a nice guy... I'll share some of the scandalous juice in the dream i had

Why don't i make a list? Better right? Straight and simple. Okay, so my nightmare consist of:-

1. Seeing some of your friends that you know in the dream doing some gay shit

2. Went to a "Porn Convention/Event"

3. Witness massive sex orgy session which involves some of your girl friends that you know

4. Me, hiding in the toilet for god knows what reason

5. Seeing my friend got crazy at a policeman for giving him a summons for littering

6. Summons was a direct order to arrest my friend issued by our Prime Minister

7. Seeing Maria Ozawa in the Porn Convention (That's a plus)

8. Me throwing seeds and fruits to a group of people on the other side of the field (Kinda like a food fight thing, but it was with fruits and seeds... Yeah seeds, and those seeds really can fly far)

There you go! Summary of the fucked up dream that i got.

Hell i know what's the meaning to it...

Gonna think about it and try to deduce this mother fucker.